My Daily Dose

Relevation

2010-11-10T00:56:00.000+08:00

How can anyone not want me? I'm intelligent, sexy and sensitive. Almost a perfect boyfriend! What is wrong with men nowadays?!

"You're too perfect for me." - The worst break-up line ever heard

Flatulence!

2010-11-08T12:15:00.000+08:00

I was on the train back home from morning lectures.

Guy beside me just farted nonchalantly. A baby in front of him gave a startled look. LMAO! I gave him the startled look too. LOL! Eventually he said excuse me after feeling embarrassed for like a minute.

"poot!" - the latest iconic audible wavelength you can ever find in this dog-eat-dog world.

Monetary Economics

2010-10-21T00:41:00.000+08:00

"An Historical Analysis of Monetary Policy Rules" - John B. Taylor

Good working paper by NBER. For those undergraduates studying the dynamics of monetary economics and policy rules regarding it, do check it out. You might want to email me if you need the document, I have it on soft copy, or you can google it.

Had a good discussion with this social psychology professor of mine. Really...a nice lady she is. Love the way she gives her lectures, really shows her in-depth knowledge of how we should approach social psychological issues.

I'm tired now, have assignments..peace out.

想念。。。

2010-10-20T06:32:00.001+08:00

我们一直都在一起。
他老是像跟屁虫一样。。跟在我身边
不管我那天是高兴还是难过
只要我回头的时候
他都在那里
他永远都会在那里等
等着跟我一起笑一起哭
有他在的时候，我不用掩饰自己，可以做最真实的我。
只要有他在，我真的就很開心。。。
所以我希望他一直在，
一直一直一直都在。。。

Report on the LSE Exchange Programme

2010-10-19T23:56:00.003+08:00

Sent in my report on the exchange programme that I did with the London School of Economics this morning.

Woo hoo! Freedom!!!

Nah! Have 3 modules to do this semester to finish it up, topping it up with a good report!

Management Math (a.k.a Maths for Economists)
Monetary Economics
Social Psychology

"Post Financial Crisis: Key Lessons, Economic Strategies and Future Investment Opportunities for Asia"

Anyone wanna help me with it? would love to work long, hard hours with you...hehe....

I love this vid!

2010-10-19T23:50:00.003+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PaCPlKlFqXg

Finale..The end..

2010-06-25T00:52:00.001+08:00

I think it's over...my struggle with Christopher

I will always remember you, and that it's important for me to move on not because you are not significant, but only due to the fact that I need to stay happy in order for you to be blissful in heaven. I still feel you around me.
Being weird and a freakshow, i've lost friends. I'm not about to crash my friendship with the remaining. They've been through so much with me, i ought to reciprocate with something good.
I need to move on...because I feel that it's the right thing to do. All these while I have been cooped up in a cage, not knowing what to do besides studying. I think it's time I should meet new people, it's time I should start a new relationship.
Everyone out here who has lost someone special, you guys should continue showing your care and concern for those who still live. Destroying yourself is a crime, but giving up completely is an even greater crime that anyone, not just the gay and lesbian community, should ever commit. It's only that you treat yourself with respect and integrity that people would take the same positive euphemisms within them and hope for a greater good.
Not knowing how it's possible? Discuss it with someone close to you. Make sure you really trust in him/her and tell the person how you feel about certain things. Those who think that it's utter bullshyt, think again, there will definitely be one time in your life that would come to such an ultimatum. Trust me, I had it already, there's not gonna be another climax for me ever. So think about it, it's helpful to know how to share your emotions because by bottling it up, no social changes can happen in your life.

If you feel that sharing your problems online would not help, you could drop me a message here (or email me at astrobolz@msn.com since I have no perks here) and i think ya, i could try to help, and also this helps me to understand more about what specific problems that our community faces individually, so maybe in a way i could just give a little bit more of a decent contribution towards those that are discerningly disturbed in the gay and lesbian community.
My blog viewers, do spread the word that i'm giving this a go and that by expanding a network, we could all help each other.

2010-06-25T00:45:00.003+08:00

ER Season 15x14

A really touching scene I saw only recently! Gosh!
I cried...
Makes me wonder why I didn't become a medical student, instead, fuck around with economics and english literature, wasting a few years back and forth.
Thank you ER for making this episode of the last season, the best, and really the best I've ever seen.
If you want to see that episode, click here.

His death anniversary....

2010-02-16T01:27:00.000+08:00

It's the time of the year again..visited his grave. What happened 5 years ago still lingers in my mind sometimes.

I still remember how you pat my head while im sleeping in your arms...I can still remember your warmth, your heartbeat, your smile....

You left me just like that.

You want me to forget you..I can't...i really can't...

Raining....

Betrayal

2010-01-25T00:14:00.001+08:00

Still remember the day i let you go,
feeling still hurts, etched deeply in my heart

Still remember those words you said,
that devours my soul

Still recognize those pictures that we took,
that prints memories of hatred

Still recognize the smell on you,
that i take not as fragrance, but as odour

I'm really lost for words...

2009-11-10T13:56:00.000+08:00

I was thinking, if the only thing that exists between men and women is sexual desire, would the world be a better place for all? Or did God misplace his trust by sinking his own ship of beliefs that all individuals should just live their lives carrying their own fucking sins?

I'm guessing none of it. It really depends on how we look at it. Just like if u look at a certain square object's shadow, i may think it's a rubik's cube, u think it might just be a simple block. All things in life are just shadows of the actual living world. However in the world that i live in, people tend to put sexual desires much forward that anything else. Im thinking, being gay isn't anything much of a big deal, neither can i be placed on a tabloid for such unflattering acts. So why do gay people feel that sexual desires are a must to everything? It seems like a constant mantra, repeated at accelerating rates.

Do people just feel oppressed towards their own feelings? Thus, using sex as a way of releasing their inner desires? I do love sex, really, i think it's healthy. However some people overdo it! They make themselves look like whores. Recently i had a friend whom i've asked a question. "Why do you have sex so often?" She said, "I don't know. I just can't control it!" Well no offense, but i think someone's got to have pussy control. Sex shouldn't be the only thing that exists between two individuals. (Or three, or four...whatever, haha) Emotions should be graced as a formal way of releasing certain negativities with your physical self.

However, if love were to be a mechanism for resolving such issues, why do people end up in divorces? I too want to experience love, recently i met this guy who's really talented, really cute, and really too much of a guy-next-door. What should i do? Readers, do give me your comments as to how i should deal with such issues...

Psychos!

2009-09-26T04:23:00.004+08:00

Sigh...it's one of those nights whereby i feel like total-murder-suicide. I think im really boomed and doomed in all of my dates coz i just don't know how to handle them. I mean, you like this person, then you expect him to change?

Love isn't a trade-off, you don't expect that person to just turn into a hectress overnight for your selfish expectations.

Anyway, im bunked off from him. He's such a psycho!

Exam Results

2009-09-11T16:42:00.000+08:00

Peeps! Got my results! Here's the shyt.

Organisation Theory - 67
Maths 1 - 78
Principles of Sociology - 27 (i failed..thank god it's just this)
Principles of Accounting - 61

All results are at least a second upper class honours. Guess it's fine results for me since i didn't really work my ass off even though i wasn't working. Sociology's ready to be dropped anyway. Only 3 out of 4 subjects are taken into concern for your first year. Great work on the LSE system! In that way no one actually dies, except for those losers who actually think they rocked, but died by failing 2 or more subjects in the first year. Anyway, i'm on my way to planning for my postgraduate studies during my second year. After much consideration and advices from my colleagues, i settled down on taking GMAT as my postgraduate admissions test. I think having GMAT gains me internships and what's more, MBA is really an accredited program that anyone would kill for.

I think being part of this journey is really going to be a rewarding experience.

I've checked out the top 100 universities and here's the deal: I want to get into one of the top 10 MBA programs in the UK. Since i'm in London School of Economics and Political Sciences, i reckon it would be a great alternative to actually do my Master's in the UK.

Apparently, 680 on your GMAT score would be the average score you need to get into London Business School (Part of University of London as well). It may be 11th on the scoreboard for corporate governance, but i think it still rocking shyt on the charts being number 2 for most needed and most wanted to have by employees on the global scale.

If anyone out there sees this and wishes to help me out on my GMAT, feel free to drop me a mail at astrobolz@msn.com or send me a message on Facebook. Name's Edmund Camael Soh

Thanks!

Flower Shop!

2009-08-02T11:55:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps! I've been super busy with the opening of my sister's floret. It's really great. It's in marine parade, just one bus stop away from parkway parade. Here's the venue.

Lavender 'n' Lace Floret
Venue: 45 Amber Road (Inside Ban Nee Chen Nursery)
Opening Hours: 9am to 9pm / 7 days a week!
Website: http://www.lavendernlace.com
Contact Person(s): Me!

We are also intending to set up some hobby classes, meaning to say that those who are interested to take up flower arrangement as a hobby can sign up with us, these concepts are in the midst of discussion. Should be at affordable rates and at just market prices.

Do contact me if you people needs some flowers for corporate events, chinese new year celebrations, private parties or even special occassions such as Valentine's Day. Guaranteed for satisfaction, hey, it's me and my sister, we won't let you guys down. lol!

Gender Studies

2009-07-08T21:37:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps, i've been hooked on this book called "My Separate Ways" by Bell and Nkomo. It's all about Black and White Women and the Struggle for Professional Identity.

I think it's really a poignant viewpoint of how the fates of black and white women entwined with each other. Gender inequalities seems to be what's focused on this topic about gender studies. As where sex is concerned, i think there's alot of differences between both sexes when you talk about society today.

Unfair treatment towards women, not just black and white, but im talking more about asian women too. Look at how hordes of asian women get trafficked and prostituted in the streets of countries like Bangkok. There is just not enough education opportunities provided for asian women in such countries. I think the government should provide more talks and seminars for the women race not just to tell how they should improve their lives, but also get moving on how much they can have in their pockets. Educate them! This cannot be the only mode of how these women in these countries can make money.

I believe women of the new century and society do have minds of their own, and they do need this. It's not just this. I believe men do sometimes belittle women and some womenfolk tend to have a self-fulfilling prophecy, which, if i may suggest, is "contagious".

Quoting Linda Butler in the book, it's very encouraging and brave of her to stand up for her own rights, and she's not being cynical about it. She's just taking rights into her own hands, and for that matter, deserved to be credited for her resistance to objections of women in higher positions in their careers.

This resistance to the notion of discrimination shaped the way white women confronted the barriers they encountered. As Linda Bulter told us "I guess i just accepted that that's how it was, and it was up to me to change perceptions of women and what we could do." Linda have proven more than once, often by just demanding more of herself. The only women at the senior level of a large utility company, she comments, "I don't want them to say,"Look, a woman can't handle it-that's what happens when you put her into a position of power." - Quoted from pp.170 Flashpoints, Our Separate Ways

So i think Singapore should step up too for the recent AWARE incident, that it's definitely good to see women getting the same fair share as what they should have in the beginning. What men can do, women can do it too, and i strongly believe that this notion should always be taught in the education system of tomorrow.

Another day has passed...

2009-03-15T00:06:00.000+08:00

Well i can't exactly explain how lonely i get sometimes, i guess my friends think im always up on some shyt, or just out with random people.

Guess the fuck what, im always alone. I have no idea how i managed to portray myself as a socialite. I guess im pretty much of a loner, since im always meeting the wrong dates (either attached or just not my cup of tea). My friends all seem to can get appointments on and dates with their boyfriends or girlfriends. I can't, i seem to have lost that ability to socialise that much with other people recently. I seem to have been cut off totally from society. I guess im kind of alienated.

I think my good scores in academics do reflect this fact ya know?
I have alot of time to study, and i can't complain that i don't because i really really do not hang out with other people at all, except my best friend and my schoolmate.

I spend alot of time at home, or at gym, or at the swimming pool. I feel uneasy at clubs recently, and i have no idea why. I guess i've outgrown the clubbing mood.

Whatever, i guess im better off being alone as usual. I've never really had a day whereby my buddies would actually do something special for me. I get the shyt moments whereby i really do feel that everyone's avoiding me on purpose. I guess im just being sensitive...or is it really the case? I don't know....

Tears...

2009-03-12T00:41:00.000+08:00

Tears are for the faint hearted. We all know that, and i know im not supposed to be part of that. But all these emotional baggages are really bursting out of space inside me.

He knows, I know....it's the right thing to do. We cannot be unfair to other people...

As usual, i think it's the right thing to get away...leave things the way it was before...

But....

I can't carry it anymore....

I can't hold back my tears.....anymore.....

I am tired....really....

It's time for me to go back to where i came from....

Im officially an A.C bitch

2009-03-10T13:40:00.000+08:00

For all you guys out there who actually adore Adrianne Curry, i really think that she's the shyt because she's so fucking cool which leads to the question of why she went out passe?

Guys you really gotta watch her on youtube, doing nowlive.com shows 2 years ago. She really rocks with her tits and crass talks and her peanut butter jelly dance!

Please, vote for her. haha!

Liar!

2009-03-08T00:15:00.000+08:00

Ok im really hopping mad. I can't believe my friend actually make up one whole big fucking fat lie just to go to a bloody gay sauna.

2.30am - he received a sms which i didn't even question much about, then he said he's going off like half a minute later saying that he cannot stand the smoke in the club.

I went home alone.

8.30am - he smsed me back explaining that he didnt go to the sauna, and he had severe headaches from the smoke in the club.

Like how "believable" can this be? Im not angry because he went to a freaking sauna, but because a explanatory lie was made up because of a freaking lousy reason.

Like come on la, 6 hours difference leh, u think im dumb? We've been friends for freaking 6 years and ur trying to pull off such a stunt in front of me? i cannot believe it, totally.

Updates Updates!

2007-12-31T16:55:00.000+08:00

Recently Kristen viewed my blog, and said it was outdated. I beg to differ. you see, you don't need a blog to actually update every single details about your life ya know? On a physical scale it may be true that my blog is indeed not updated, but on a psychological scale, i see it as a way to actually leave my blog to take a rest.

You see. Blogs are just like a e-companion that helps us to express our thoughts and ideas from time to time, letting everyone in the dot.com world know what's going on in your daily life. Of course not entirely true because of certain laws in this world that keeps people's mouth shut.

Blogs are not anti-stress. You do not treat your e-companion like a conversation slut. They need rest too. That shows that you need rest as well.

So what im saying here is, im writing all these crap to actually let all of you out there try to make believe the myth of living online creatures such as our main host, blogs. At the same time, making you guys listen to these bullshyt that's being made out of boredom.

Im Screwed

2007-10-08T00:11:00.001+08:00

Not been updating my blog..i personally feel that i need to vent my frustrations online. But because i work in a military/government organization, im forbade to do so. Anyway, i need to change my outlook in life. I need to take things in stride because otherwise, i would be stranded in the streets sometime in the future not knowing whether i should rush out to the road and get knocked down by a ferrari.

This is saddening! Im not focusing enough! recently i realized that i haven't done great things in life except ogling at men and admiring the models from victoria's secret.
That's real bad. But i think i should be side-tracking because that's not what i want to do in life. I need inspiration. And im lucky that i have friends like Danielle and Kristen who really do care, and really do give me awesome advices from time to time. Strange thing is...i want to use their advices and try working towards a greater good.

I was self-centered. But now im just purely me. I wanna do what's within my area of influence. I wanna do what's right for me.

SMU hasnt replied me. Initially i was all down. But now come to think of it, i don't really have to be too sad even if they turn me down. I can always appeal if i want to. I could always try other universities. I can do overseas if i want to as well. It's not the end of my journey and it's funny, because that would mean half of the time, what was i doing?!

I should be forward-looking, giving myself to settle down, calm my thoughts and think what to do next.

But i really do want to get into a local university.

I have a new life

2007-05-01T14:26:00.001+08:00

"ok im a guy full of sins. That is bad...because nobody likes a person full of sins. They think it's sorta taboo to be with this kind of people. It's just like playing mahjong. The tiles u get and you don't want it? you discard it. Im in that category man. And im not joking eh?"

LOL! Anyway to update my sistas and friends about my recent happenings after 3 months of missing trails, i have loads of shyt to tell u gurls. (Im sorry for not updating my blog fer so long. It's just that i have alot of things on hand that were unsettled. Those shyt has been bugging me fer loads of years.)

I got into MINDEF! it's a great posting. It's good. I never worry about me showing blurps when doing office work. Of course this didnt come easy. I had to eliminate the doppelganger dude that was with me on the same day we arrived in that hell hole. Well, it's not too bad i think. He's in some other camp out there. Anyway, because there could only be one person left in the tight spot, they chose me, because im better qualified to be in that position. So i started to be there everyday as an int spec. Cant say what i do of course, it's a bad thing to talk about government and politics online, way not cool, could get alot of people including myself into trouble.

I sorta revamped my room abit, with a new bookshelf, a new table, it's much more better looking and definitely more spacious. I always wanted to throw away that piece of junk with 3 small spaced out shelves. Even though it may be the one and only table that was with me since i was very very VERY young.

Crystle! thanks for the present! Even though i havent seen what it is...but im still more interested in seeing u in person rather than that present. It's been so long! when are we gonna meet woman?! U've been stuck with ur boy too long. It's time to get out and have a booze with moi! urgh!

Im still into reggaeton i guess, gurls, introduce me to some great reggaeton hits, or better yet, CLUBS! lolz! I wanna shake that booty on the dance floor. hehe!

Chloe where have u been?! i dig ur nick on msn. "I WON 10 MILLION BUCKS!" lol!

Ok that's all folks...watch me for more updates eh!? ttfn!

New Posting...New Year Resolution

2006-12-31T11:35:00.000+08:00

Haiz...i have finally walked to this stage of life...training how to be a commander...it's irritating to the ears when people tell you about how you got to change and stuff like that.

Im gonna endure..im gonna tell myself that I can do it. Even though the training is tough...but you know...ya just gotta make do with it sometimes. It will seem much more better when i get a new posting...in 8 weeks time. Lolz!

Oh ya...my new year resolution!

1) Im gonna start saving for one more time since i accumulated quite a lump sum of shyt in the first account. So i think i will gain quite a lot of 'wealth' in the next 1 year plus in my NS life. LOLZ! (Seriously the pay is low what...cannot make it.)

2) New attitude towards life...im gonna be super homely...im gonna be a slut still, but lowering down the slut level abit...u know..lolz!

3) Im gonna have more sex...it's good. But wear the condoms! it's essential

4) Visit shopping centres and cinemas and libraries more..i need to get in touch more with modern civilization since im stuck in camp all the time.

Anyway, vivocity is super boring. And it's only the second visit..GOODNESS! I found nothing out of the hellhole except one grey esprit top and esprit belt. My fashion sense...can only describe with one word, HORRENDOUS!

And im Mr Slut for ADE! omg! it's horrendous-ly beautiful sounding! I can never imagine the cam whore cum slut call me mr slut.

Apologies

2006-11-12T14:42:00.000+08:00

Omg! sorry babes! i haven blogged for such a fucking long time. army has really cut me out from civilisation..i just wanna go through the next 1 year and 9 months in peace. Well sad to say..there ain't peace all the time in life. So i beg to differ what people always say about how slack life is and all that stuff..it's just super pun intended.

Anyway, three more weeks to graduation parade. I have been through quite loads of shyt through out these past 10 weeks...loads of hardship but im proud to tell myself that i've pulled through all these.
Next, I just wanna say how grateful i am to Sir Ashley Liew, even though u always punish me for stupid things that i've done (actually im intelligent, but it's just that i really cant be bothered sometimes) but u know what, i've learned alot of things from someone who's one year younger than me. That's not bad..and that's something he should be proud of.

Sidetrack abit haha...coming back to my own life. As i was saying, im really apologetic for not blogging. It's a tangible sin. D.A.M.N
Im just looking forward to block leave and stuff like this. Holidays really mean alot to me..seriously..

Sheena's away on attachment overseas. Was with Rachel the whole day on her birthday celebration (so called house party la actually) and Chloe's been picking up my calls and talking to me...She is real encouragement during my most down times. Chloe babe, your my virgin mary (sounds wrong..but wadeva..lol)

Enlistment

2006-09-07T14:13:00.000+08:00

Hey guys..i won't be around for a VERY VERY VERY long time. Don't know whether u guys will miss me anot..especially tiffany hue, kinda funny without you around suddenly, i know you deliberately hid your number away from me because of all the kristen stuff etc. and im not gonna be ambiguous when toking about it. Coz thats a fact, and you know me, i state facts and whatever shyt i see.

Im going in NS to see all the hot men. well..not all..lol! and of coz, i DIDNT DECLARE...wah lau i cant believe that's like the first question you guys shoot me la! lol!

Anyway the items that i have to bring under a list is seriously farkin lame.

Item I need To Bring:

1. Alarm Clock (This is fucking lame la..it's army)
2. Basic Toiletries (Duh! like...everyone needs that can?!)
3. Clothes Washing Powder/Detergent (Im just gonna scoop out like a ration of it...i mean..u dun wipe out washing powder just like that within 3 weeks you know)
4. Extra Underwear (in case i get diaper rash)
5. Swimming Goggles (cool! i didnt expect hydro facial wash)
6. Identity Card (Duh)
7. Inexpensive Watch (Who brings a watch man?!)
8. Nail Clipper (A MUST FOR ALL SISTAS AND COSMOPOLITAN READERS!)
9. Slippers (everyone's definitely bringing this, so it's kinda pointless to state it down)

Of course i won't be a whore inside, i swear! Im not gonna throw face away from the hilton sisters' regime.

Birthday Wish List

2006-08-01T10:53:00.000+08:00

Hey people, i wan my presents! 11th August coming liao leh ta ma de! Below is my birthday wish list...i DEMAND to have my pressies! lol kidding la!...

Birthday Wish List

1. Any burberry wallet
2. A dildo
3. Any relax straight engineered jeans with size 30 or 32 from Levis
4. A lamp for my room...any state of the art design one....must be orange color kind of light one...
5. A set of ambi pur air freshner (those three pin plug one)
6. A winnie the pooh bear...those huggable ones ar..dun give me keychain or small small ones that can only be grabbed in the hand only. I will slap the person who gives me that sia. lol kidding!
7. Biotherm Homme Hydra Detox Anti Dullness Moisturizing Oxygenant One bottle..normal size one
8. Any shopping vouchers..up to u guys and gurls
9. An application form for a UOB debit card..coz i dun have time to go down
10. A wrist pad...those cute cute bear bear kind of wrist pad for office one...got this shop in bugis that sells it, it's a doggie plush toy.

OKie dokie...as u can see people, the wish list i have here has a low level of difficulty. lol!

Tests AGAIN...

2006-07-25T08:21:00.000+08:00

I'm a Ferrari 360 Modena!

You've got it all. Power, passion, precision, and style. You're sensuous, exotic, and temperamental. Sure, you're expensive and high-maintenance, but you're worth it.

"Take the Which Sports Car Are You? quiz.

What a joke..im only a ferrari 360

fuck u

2006-07-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

(This is a disclaimer, not meant for dappi and her girlfriend because you people are the most sensible couple i have seen)
Haiz...i don't want to see them get hurt if i shout at them, so i decided to bang every fucking thing here.

Seriously what is up with u lesbiens?! doing all the stupid things that might end urself up into serious trouble everytime! It may be just one minor thing too, but u gurls seem to really make the scene out of everything so that the public can actually take notice of u people.

When you guys need me then call me, it seems that im always the one asking you gurls out seriously. I don't know why because you gurls seem to always have a predicament and i get to eat all the shyt finale in one whole pie.

I may not even get that pie, but i still get to experience part of the process of making that bloody pie that makes u gurls suffer like mad. Seriously what is the point when the objective of life is not to make urself even more miserable and start being happy. Dwelling on it doesnt make u happier, it makes u sad. You gurls promise this promise that, in the end who are the ones that are sickies, it's you gurls! So stop doing that when ur cannot handle it! It hurts people around you because they are the ones that are trying to be happy.

I know it's cool to be butch! But lately i've been seeing loads of drama from you girls and it gives me the total idea that u gurls are totally passive instead of having the masculinity that i'm supposed to see you guys have. It just totally beats off the idea of being butch. No point being weak when you want to be strong rite?

I don't even think you guys remember my birthday. But i'm seriously not expecting any gifts from you gurls. I just want to disappear out of your lives right now and totally see you gurls get happy with the fact that there is still a spark of life in your respective lives. Get on with it and make a point out of it. Why bother being depressive and stuff?!

Want me to make a real summarized statement about the fact that im hanging out with you guys?

It's really been fun, i had great moments attached with you gurls seriously but it's not getting anywhere, everytime i meet u gurls i keep hearing all the same names all over again. It may seem interesting to u people, but it's doesnt to me. I want to hear more things seriously. I believe there's more to life than hearing all those small small things that makes yourselves worried momentarily and thereafter continuously. As it went on, i really had a tough time handling with it coz i really need some space to breathe, not once did anyone hear my problems...not once did u girls actually ask "is everything okay with ur life over there?", not once did anyone of you asked "do you need a break?"... And not once did anyone tell me "hey! my life is made up in a good way because there is you!"

Seriously i need air to breathe, everytime i wanna talk about my own problems, i always get shut up easily when u girls have problems, and i really wanted to say it out but realized it wasnt a good time. IM GOING MAD! Sorry for my permanent disappearance...i won't be talking to you people from now on because i think whether i'm there anot, it doesnt really matter, coz my existence and my worries and my sorrow has been ignored. I don't have the capacity to show the happy side of me anymore. Bye...

Another makan spree

2006-07-17T21:13:00.000+08:00

Danielle's in Monash Uni studying psychology..Darelle's working hard still..im tired of working! it's so irritating when you don't get enuff of work and when suddenly a whole pile comes in you get agitated with it and sometimes feeling suicidal..

I don't even feel ambiguous typing all these crap.

Sunday was so bad! we had so much food...from far east to sizzlers suntec city...this is irritating! I think i gained a pound eating all those food.

But we had fun...u can obviously see it from below...

It was actually a candid shot..but i didnt expect to have such "good" results...even adding an ingenuitive slogan...

Darelle's a bad girl...she looks so hot now yet she wouldnt even want to take a pic...it's such a waste of my precious camera's effort to take this shot..but who cares! i shot her!

I just love taking pictures with her seriously...she's got that SK2 X-factor. It's such a pity she's not a model....maybe we could have her on the next singapore idol on demand..instead of daphne khoo..

Still munching away....except the spoiler part was that elle got loads of toppings for herself instead of the ice-cream. But who cares! she's the babe who's studying psych @ Monash! I wish i could name my hamster Monash! The name's so classy we ended up having fun making a fool out of it at Suntec taxi stand.

I didnt realize i had a special talent of memorizing southpark script contents. LOL! WELCOME TO RAISINS!

Food!

2006-07-08T16:43:00.000+08:00

So much food! Im getting fatter and fatter. Nic and I went over to raffles city shopping centre after abrupt consideration from me at Bugis that we should take bus 960 to raffles city shopping centre since the bus was right in front of our eyes. God!

We went to TIMES..found some book that were totally locking Nic in his own world...super la...Lilian Too is a good fortune writer..lol!

then we went to the food court to havoc...

Pigging OUT!

Ginseng Chicken Soup and Almost finished Mixed Rice...

Then i went home to meet danielle so tat we can go and see darelle sell beer..LOL! PI JIU MEI!

I swear we werent camera whoring....serious....BUT!

Bukit panjang plaza's open air tv was so irritating...

Sarcasm at it's worst

2006-07-05T16:14:00.000+08:00

I suddenly recalled the last time any of my friends actually had an incident with sarcasm at it's worst, and ms crystle tan was the first one, funny...coz i just happened to remember something that i don't remember...ok wadeva....

So it's like almost the same thing right here, you went on ahead telling people how nice you are to me, and then you start bytching about me behind my back, and then you are trying to be two faced which you probably cant because i did hint that sense of sarcasm in your tone of speech. Why bother asking me out when you don't even mean it? I don't even want to go out seriously because you keep telling people I bothered messaging you asking you to come out.

Now everyone's hearing your side of your story, so be it. I don't care. You can be the bytch you can be and I can be just the little boy who doesnt even care who the fucking whore this beverly hills wannabe is.

I just want comments my dears!

love, muacks!

Boredom

2006-06-30T17:19:00.000+08:00

I was BORED! So i thought i took some uploads from my handphone and form it into a collage...i never expected all these stuff to come out of nowhere...

That's Mr Martin Moedl first in the top left corner...we were at Starbucks wheelock bright early 11am in the morning, he has a picture of me looking like a dyke in my polo ralph lauren denim jacket. AWWW! That's double whammy, i look like a butch and faggot at the same time.

Beside him is my dad..i just went mad taking his picture..sorry for the my thumb..it went haywire and landed there.

That baby's name is Elise. I just love her when she was young...now she's like 3 years old i think and with long hair...her aunt went mad making her a Jolin Tsai lookalike. The last time i saw her, she was throwing tantrums because her mother wouldn't let her go out. What a kid!

The "HUI-LING" is obviously someone's tattoo..this person must be a total bytch to do that just right above her buttcrack. The honour should go to none other than Crystle Gwendolyn Tan Hui Ling. I still love that tattoo..even though she kept resisting the fact that she was in pain.

OH! below her tattoo is my hamster...CYNDI! lol! i love her...she's cute, nice fur, nice eyes, nice front and hind legs, nice agility, nice whiskers...she's just NICE! Tiffany says she's gonna squeeze it when she sees its coz it looks like Hamtaro..i beg to differ.

Next is the so called unfab cheerleading team of ngee ann polytechnic, Magnum Force. Even though i spent quite some time with them, it didnt stop me from chiding when given an ample amount of time to train and almost every senior (my batch) there to help...the juniors still couldnt stick every stunt. I've been receiving shyt from my friends and family that the team really sucks totally now...I hope that's not the case..coz i haven seen them train except for the fact that the last time i saw them train, they were doing tosses in the air still. But whatever, THEY STILL ROCK TO ME!

Shots of the Camera Whore

2006-06-27T21:50:00.000+08:00

I just uncovered loads of photos...realizing the fact that google has a software called Picasa, i used it to upload pictures here instead of Photobucket.

Obviously it's not working...so i used photobucket still...and ta da!

Esther and Stacy

Esther and Stacy still...camera whor-ing away like crazy @ MOS

You seem so near, yet so far...

2006-06-27T15:33:00.001+08:00

I've been waiting for you....really...i never expected any returns...but i just need you to recognize my existence..is that so hard to attain for me?

Mr. R, if you see this,i just need to tell you this...

I LIKE YOU

It hurts like mad to find myself liking the cyber you, but i just couldnt help it. I can only blame myself for my mere foolishness. I can only face the mirror and tell myself you are just an illusion, not for real.
But it is all because of you that i can manage to see through myself, and tell myself, im stronger than before.

It hurts me to hear from you that you aint wanting relationships, just flings...but hasnt it occurred to you that aint i the same as you?

We were born on the same day and month, if this makes a special bond, i really like it to last forever.

Flashbacks

2006-06-27T01:35:00.000+08:00

Ok flashbacks for what i've been doing all this while people, OH! i just realized my blog friends are mostly lesbiens, bisexuals or girls, that's surprising! think normally guys dun blog, the only not straight guy friends here are like cedric tang and robin la!

Flashback #1

Eh...hanging out like mad with tiffany and kristen la. Everyday and night pine grove, holland village, town, clubbing and choa chu kang. Wah kao...tiring!

But really great hanging out with you guys, coz my gay friends dun really care much about me since they've got their happy lives now, ok that's bad coz the only gay friend that HANGS OUT with me is still ultimately cedric. But who cares! as long as he's happy with his life im happy for him.

Flashback #2

Being delusional about my life for a while and then suddenly some magical power woke me up from my ever dragging-my-life-out sleep.

Flashback #3

Met Nic today actually, haven seen him for like damn long la! he's still doing fine and someone special just went in his life, so two tops! fabulous!

Im quite shocked at his appetite, he can still eat supper after dinner with him at bugis. The wanton mee made me sick la!

Flashback #4

I look like a butch with polo ralph lauren denim jacket, bought it at isetan. Mr Martin was so nice to take my photo bright early 11.30am in the morning at starbucks near wheelock place. I look like a butch in that photo..haven got it..got he's like in Germany now...I MISS HIM ALOT!

Flashback #5

Noodle got in Singapore IDOL TOP 12! And we were all so sad when the host said she's not la! Then the TV went on and reported it. actually i didnt know about it until Trisha told me about it coz i was busy designing this poster for NAFA's new theatre piece of art work a.k.a stage play. oh! i saw a few guys and gals from mass comm that nite. They gave me a funny look...but i tot i was thinking too much. I saw fuzzy....shant say much...leave the thinking to u guys.

I was at the results show, trisha got filmed in the face! lol! god! even though it was blurry but everyone at home could still see her. Her fault! That was actually my seat. A7! But she wanted it. Now everyone's toking about it. But she looks pretty EVEN when blurred. LUCKY WEN BIN! U GOT A PRETTY GIRLFRIEND! TREASURE HER!

Flashback #6

I just realized everyone has been misunderstanding me totally. Someone must have really spread some shyt about me or wadeva, coz i really didnt believe in wadeva chris and friends' words. Someone must really have been defaming me, but i tot about it, it's not worth putting myself in the sidelines with them. I shouldnt be so stupid. I was impulse 1 year back then. Now im not.

I got strange glares from a group of guys at HAPPY...wonder what's wrong...

No one wants me around...

2006-05-28T23:35:00.000+08:00

I'm so glad that you guys got together...really wish the best for you guys! one mind load off...

now i can be alone, as long as my friends are happy, i am happy.

met new friends, got a new life, and i know that as long as im unwanted you guys will always be there for me...

but i still feel bad, i don't want to be anyone's burden...

im always in the position of matchmaking people, or seeing people hugging each other, or getting lovey dovey, but never in the position of actually getting loved...

I yearn to receive bouquets of roses
I yearn to be there for him whenever he is down
I yearn to have dinner with the one i love just once a month and see him being happy with himself and his career...
I yearn to love him with all my heart and will
I yearn to be loved in return...

But all these never took place...

I know it's really an embarrasing thing to actually not have a date until the age of 20...but i cant help it when every person that i met wants physical pleasure fulfilled by me...and im actually forced sometimes to do it. It wasnt something that i envisaged...for real

I understand the kind intention you have for me, and it's really my honour to accept it...however...no point introducing a person to me that i cant possibly fantasize about when i don't even whether he is interested in me.

Coz i know that he definitely won't be the person that will always be there for me when i need him. He definitely won't be the person that can give me 100% of his love when i can give him 100% of my definite love. If he can't even manage his own time and send out messages to people that is dear to him...he shouldnt be the person that i expected to be my prince charming. If he really is interested, he would have messaged me, and not just say that he is paiseh.

Sorry for my unexpected short term disappearance...please let me be alone

Mood = Sad

2006-05-23T02:28:00.000+08:00

Mood: Sad and Pissed

How could they insult me like that?! saying that i take my allowance and use it to buy myself some drugs to make myself high. I have my own dignity too u know.

Chee bye...cut my allowance to 20 bucks a week, snip off my card...freaking hell losing my grip on my life right now la.

Don't even try to understand my predicament right now, only can rub it in. add salt add oil..what's coming next man?! tell me! what?!

I know this is lame..

2006-05-21T16:22:00.000+08:00

I cant help it! the tickle tests are so fun to me nowadays!~ i just had to try one more...

I AM A GOLDEN RETRIEVER!
No bones about it, you're a popular, fun-loving Golden Retriever. Adored by all and too cool for school, you're extroverted and enthusiastic. Your magnetic personality makes you the life of any bash.

Goodness

2006-05-19T06:00:00.000+08:00

My IQ is 109! lol!

"This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.

Your Intellectual Type is Inventive Inquisitor. You have the unusual distinction of being equally good at math and verbal skills. This means you are a creative thinker and are uniquely good at teaching others through experiences. You are also a great improviser and very good at handling change."

Death in the darkness and neon lights

2006-05-17T17:11:00.000+08:00

Over-excessive Clubbing, Alcholic, Desperation of Love

OMG! Great Blog Star!

2006-05-10T08:33:00.000+08:00

Bryanboy is just so cool, hot and cynical in a good way! I love u bryanboy!

Blogging...

2006-05-02T23:55:00.000+08:00

I think..this template is still the best, and it suits the current mood that actually fits perfectly into my life right now...and i feel that as a person i am growing day by day, unknowingly....

Even though anaesthesias are good when you need to stay calm, overdose of it may result in life long regrets. Cease the current situation, that really helps alot.

However i've always felt that loads of people who actually make out a facade think that no one actually can see through it...well i guess i probably had a slight resemblance to those people then...

Some people really think that they can get away with things so easily. I think likewise. What can i say? ..... I love to hunt for prey, making them inferior and getting out of their farkin neuro...

The Anaesthesia...

2006-05-02T01:57:00.000+08:00

I've been dwelling on it for a long time....

I am not who i wanna be....
don't wanna force myself to be that...
it's time i took some force and control
wrath....

Ignorance provocates....
No bloodsport...just plain old school...
Cynical? No...
Bad Sense of Judgement...

At work now...

2006-04-18T14:33:00.000+08:00

I cant believe im typing my blog in the office...but it is so exciting! LOL! goodness christ sake! i am typing shyt nuts about my life this time. I shall endorse on something even more spectacular, some more intrigue, even more passionate..that is...still my life..lol! let's talk about the recent events that i have been through for the past few weeks of my pathetic life.

Zouk Anniversary Trilogy 2006 @ Phuture
Companions: Kristen
Purpose: To club...duh...
The account:
Ok so went..and the bartenders were totally loser material together with the totally cheena piang accent with their cheena piang hangouts. Total loser shyt! Oh did i mention that we actually so these friends of kristen, and they totally bored the shyt out of us. Lol! GOODNESS! but anyway, god bless them!

The everchanging twist
I got sick! omg! doc said i have a total sensitive skin and biologically, i wasnt supposed to eat food that may cause a chain of chemical reaction in my body due to the specific nature of my allergies.

Work
Web designing isnt that bad after, but im still pressed on trying to work in events planning coz isnt that one of my best modules?

IT training is still the most enjoyable so far

Customer Service..WHAT'S SO FUN ABOUT ANSWERING GENERAL ENQUIRIES!?

My Own Room!

2006-04-09T13:23:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps, please do join in the fun in helping me decorate my own room! lol! come my house...give ideas, i don't know what to put inside my own room..so...ya! it's time to use your brains now people, all of you!

Rabil linked me! ok la...i forced him to la! haha...but after all the 4-Ds and TOTO, he should link me oki?! here's his website...

www.youyong.ws (copy and paste the link yourselves please, im sian to add coding...)

Lastly, God Bless You!

Regards,
The Beyonce Wannabe

Cedric Tang Wei Liang!

2006-03-22T04:45:00.000+08:00

Cedric Tang! lol! u idiot! i don't prance towards the tennis ball across the bloody tennis court in a tennis skirt, swinging the racket with broken wristed somemore!

Make me laugh like mad la! Im sure your friends will enjoy the blog posting you added! lol!

My phone!

2006-03-08T04:44:00.000+08:00

Oh my goodness, i nearly lost my phone..and this incident is disclaimed! No KIDS should try it outdoors! The following account enacts the true nature of homosapiens in SINGAPORE.

OK..i went over to kelvin's house to fix his laptop and computer @ 4am in the morning. smart aleck rite? can lure me down. Then nvm, i fix already, i didnt even realized that my handphone wasnt with me ever since we got into his bloody 3 storey terrace. (That's besides the point)

So i was so super to only realize the inexistence of that bloody mobile device that i used to call handphone at the clementi kopitiam. STUPID RITE?! Nvm, we went back to ginza plaza to find it...NOTHING! We went his house...NOTHING! I was on the verge of tearing every piece of shyt in his room when suddenly the ringing tone came. He tried calling my phone and someone picked it up. We had to try two times call-in (that shows how nokia phones actually suck when users get shyt out of nothing from automatic shut down functions)

So basically the resolution was that this nice nice nice auntie found it with her kid while sending him to school. And she returned it~! argh! god loves me! and god bless her and her family! Serious nice people..no shyt about it!

hoho...

2006-02-23T13:34:00.000+08:00

You can never imagine how different positions during sleep could indicate the personality within an individual. Well...i had mine done...

Full Fetal:
You are vulnerable and sensitive. After all, your guarding your heart. You might cling to a pillow for security. As such, you need assurance that your feelings are reciprocated before you give yourself completely in a relationship.

No place to go....

2006-02-18T15:06:00.000+08:00

This song describes me now....OH! And please join in the BOYCOTT CARTEL ACTION with me and darelle...only at Radio Heatwave! (I'm helping her to broadcast this message around, coz i feel that cartel's bacon sux)

Avril Lavigne - Nobody's Home

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

New Year Resolution

2006-01-27T00:30:00.000+08:00

This is my wishlist for the upcoming DOGGIE year. Support Support Please!

TOP ON THE LIST....

1) GET INTO SINGAPORE MANAGEMENT UNIVERSITY! I BETTA MAKE SURE I GET IN!

FOLLOWED BY.....

2) A bigger house for my hamster coz it's growing at the speed of a pig..it's now almost as big as a syrian hamster. and now it's hiding at 'home' coz he thinks he's too fat to be seen in public.
3) Good job before NS
4) Silver award for NAPFA coz i like silver
5) A nice boyfriend (depends on fate la actually)
6) Love all my sistas 100%
7) Buy something for our dear crystle tan who got in FHM top 100 (applause!)

Materialism kicks in...

1) MY OWN ROOM...COMING SOON IN MARCH 2006
2) Money
3) and more Money
4) Crystle Gwendolyn Tan Hui Ling u better give me a new year present i tell u, otherwise i will keep calling u at ungodly hours! HAHA!
5) A new "ER HERM ER HERM"
6) A CAR...RIGHT AFTER I GET MY LICENSE! HOORAY! Then i can drive my sluts around
7) More maggie mee...i love it
8) Condolisa's scar heal

Blogging Blogging

2006-01-27T00:16:00.000+08:00

I just realized that i haven blogged for such a bloody long time until i read pel's blog! lol! thanks sista!

ANYWAY, im graduating in 5 weeks' time...so im happy, and happy, and HAPPY HAPPY! haha...im so scared of exams now...especially business law la...super killer paper.

For the person who tagged comments on my sista's blog, thanks for the great entertainment! It was my utmost pleasure reading your blog. Words of assertion doesnt make you stand out, but at least you got some "popularity" votes there babe. I noticed you love to use the phrase "clean shave". Why is that so? I mean, there are nastier words you can add on. tsk tsk...so not professional bytc*ing, wonder how you survive in this world. I don't mind you paying me some fees for teaching you skills on that aspect.

Signed off,
THE FAGGOT AMONGST THE BYTCHES

An overview of feelings within MIS

2005-11-08T15:24:00.000+08:00

Info About Myself

Im edmund, a BIT student currently in my final semester in my course of study which i think im really not interested in because i got myself out of mass communications last minute to get into the school of business and accountancy. I think it's really a great chance to be in BA because the people here are caring and fun-loving. I was in Magnum Force Cheerleading Team, which by the way is part of the reason why i am in Ngee ann Polytechnic. I joined ngee ann because of Magnum, but i quitted Magnum because of Ngee Ann...Ironic rite?! lolz! I have two siblings and two parent (duh!). My elder sister is 24 this year and my younger brother is taking his O levels currently. Everybody says im a spoilt brat coz i always have too much money to spend..and i dont have to work..but the gist of the matter is, i cant work because my dad wont let me work. URGH!

Plans after Diploma
I want to get in SMU. My SAT score is above the required score of entry, Plus i got my GPA back on track, and i don't think my interview is gonna flop since i have SAT and my cca full colours award to back me up. So im pretty sure i can get into that bloody degree of economics in the faculty of economics and political sciences because i think econs is the only subject that i'm probably interested in. But before that, NS first la...can't wait to be in NS..get it over and done with coz it's probably the onli irritating period of time in my whole life. Then after that see whether i still have a heart to work in my dad's company or my sister's flower shop.

What I would like to learn in MIS

I really dun noe *laughs* dun ask me! im really expecting quite a lot of things in this semester though. Think MIS is gonna be a support module for my IIP.

Party @ Newsroom Bar again....

2005-10-18T01:05:00.000+08:00

31st Oct...where will you be? another halloween party? do you know it's full of scares and satanic-sm? why not get wild without going to hell? Lifestyle BASH brings you SPOILT BRAT's on the BARTOP
PARTY @ NEWSROOM BAR on 31st OCT! GET DIRTY the RIGHT way with R&B! dress up like a spoilt brat! Presale Tix selling @ 16 bucks each. Inclusive of one complimentary drink. 1 for 1 from 9 to 12 jim bean gals!!!! free shots AND FRENCH KISS AUCTIONS! so let's party with accordance to ANTI-HALLOWEEN CAMPAIGN! coz we wanna party in HEAVEN!

Details....
Party Event: SPOILT BRAT's on the BARTOP
Venue: Newsroom bar (further down from double O, before the lane you walk to liquid room..detailed anot?!)
Date: 31st OCT 2005

PRESALE TIX CALL OR MSG ME @ 97463142, EDMUND

Dota....

2005-10-08T10:12:00.000+08:00

This is what my dota mate e-mailed me after winning this morning...coz i kena hanged computer. lolz!!!!!

Ragnorokz's account on this morning's game:

After You Gone....
THe Oppostion Took Force
Then U Die

DIE .. and i try to save u
And i Die
After Tht i Kanna Owned like hell
btw i took ur item
i got like 20 death 1 kills
si bei cham
they all owning
then SK
And SA
Started to buck up
Then they own
knowing they two are power... They FUKING aim more
more death
DAmn
they sa and sk stick to me
and then haha lure
i am the bait
so and so and so
Doom have 3000+ LIFE
OMFG
haha but no worri
All of this then continue a lot
I then learn kmy Ulti Finally
hah
which Then I started Killing Lot OF creep with Ulti
Then I buy .... buy a lot
2 hyper
1 <-- bugdsabf ( the xx2.2 attack one )
1 soul booster
1 agies

haha
I started owning they all
they cant even get my agies down
doom 3000+ life no use
i attack so fast then ulti

ROOXXX
I OWN
then but death still over pwr my kills
then i ulti the first tower
wah very fast .,.. down
then after tht Center all gone includeing The Crown 2 tower all gone
BY MY ULTI
I ROX
next sa and sk took down the other 2 side of the tower
but no mega yet
we dont wanna end soon
we aim......
Roshan
haha
First i and sa roshan sk pushing
then we manage to make roshan half
exactly half
then . we red
SA manage to heal... dont kno whow
then i heal to yellow
Then we chiong with sk agian
then i try ulti
OMFG
MY CLONE DISSAPPEARED
... sianz but we killed roshan
then we starrt getting mega creep
owned them
STUPID VS
SWAP ME INTO FIRE BUSHG|
NEARLY DIE
but i run fast

THEN
THE END

Party @ Club MOMO...do come..

2005-10-05T22:32:00.000+08:00

"Dejavu Thur" @ Club MOMO on 13 Oct 2005. Freeflow from 9 to 10! 1 for 1 whole Nite long. Presale tickets are selling at $14 each. There will be a complimentory drink provided with that ticket. Age Limit is 18 years old! R&B + Hip Hip top 40s with a twist of retro all nite. Spread the words! Get your friends coming in

Party at Club Momo

2005-10-05T22:27:00.000+08:00

"Dejavu Thursday" @ Club MOMO on 13 Oct 2005. Freeflow from 9 to 10! 1 for 1 whole Nite long. Presale tickets are selling at $14 each. There will be a complimentory drink provided with that ticket. Age Limit is 18 years old! R&B + Hip Hip top 40s with a twist of retro all nite. Spread the words! Get your friends coming in

Contact Edmund at 97463142! get ur ticks fast~!

Another Boring Weekend

2005-09-25T01:05:00.000+08:00

This holiday has been quite rewarding....well even though it's not yet "goodbye hols". I had quite alot of events and jobs to take on as a challenge.

List of events and jobs:
1. Indochine party (it was a great party)
2. Newsroom Bar (URGh, the turnout wasnt that great, but for a tuesday, it was actually quite surprising to still see quite a number of people coming in)
3. Advertisement Designing job (For a client)
4. Website Designing Job (For the same client like no.3)
5. Website Designing Job 2 (For another company that my nice gay friend introduced to me)

This is shytty, no one wants to go clubbing with me recently, everyone's been tired. Sheena and Rachel are not going Thailand...haiz...who is that guy who backed out?! lolz! i still dunno who they are.

Have been talking and hanging out alot more with them, kristen, CHLOE (MY BABE!!!) blah blah blah. I just love them. Where are you Peline?! u've been acting like a total housewife and career woman since u stopped studying. All of us misses you..please tag on my tagboard to tell me whether ur ok and also things u've been actually messing with. I miss your mum's cooking and ur 'scorpion'. LOLZ!

Amnesia has always been around for me since dunno when. Sheena baby had to remind me that my blog wasnt really updated ever since "eons" ago. Im trying hard now to really get it all up here. URGH!

OK im getting spastik! time to knock out and play some warcraft. CIAOZ!

Party at Newsroom....

2005-09-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

Hey FOLKS! HAHA! HOW'S IDLING YOUR LIFE AWAY?

There will be a party coming up at NEWSROOM BAR on the 20th SEPT.
FREE CLEO MAG TO BE GIVEN OUT DURING THE PARTY@NEWSROOM BAR..SO BE THERE !

Here's the details of the PARTY:

LIFESTYLE BASH and CLEO MAGAZINE presents ACTION AGAINST AIDS PARTY!
Tuesday, 20th Sept 2005@ NEWSROOM BAR (Mohd. Sultan Rd)
Guest djs spinning HIP HOP, R&B
All nightdrinks going at ONE FOR ONE FREE
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my reflections on KMS

2005-09-15T02:40:00.000+08:00

Hey Ms Jamie Teo, i hope you can see that i have been trying hard to really score well for KMS. It's realli been tough as i really have been studying it all along. I feel that this blog entry will help me to express what i am going to relate to you regarding what has been for me throughout this whole semester.

We had learnt about what is KMS and the individual strategies of knowledge management at the very beggining of the semester. The use of SECI model by Professor Nonaka has been quite rewarding in doing the test questions which i find that i had to actually apply the respective concepts of socialization, externalization, combination as well as internalization. We had abit of time with the strategies codification and personalization which i thought was applied in the daily routine. We get personalized through chatting, even just simple chats during the lecture regarding questions that we do not know. Codification was really easy for us as we had MeL to support us with lecture notes. This e-learning tool is good in a sense that we can actually do a virtual chat which we did in one of the e-learning weeks of KMS. I remember my quote was "I have seen so many of my friends who are so tired, yet still have the motivation to blog." That was what i saw in the exam question as well. haha.

What was tough was actually the technology section of KMS. We had to learn how to implement KMS as well as the ethics of KMS to be performed even when im writing this entry. This is a personal blog so no offences, i just write all about my "adventures". Even before doing ethics as a lesson, i already knew that some things should be written and some things should not be written on blogs. I had a personal experience myself when i was 17. My friend was totally pissed off when i wrote about the discussion with her outside on the blog. It was about bed secrets and stuff. I remembered she refused to talk to me for 3 months. It was really bad.

We learnt about data mining and data warehouse which had a big difference because everyone thinks that they are the same which is not the truth. Lots of people find enterprise portals interesting because we had a good activity of drawing an impression of a portal during tutorial. I felt that the particular lesson was not only just personalizing with each other, but also a knowledge sharing process that could be indulged with witty and critical speeches.

In summary, i feel that knowledge management does really manage people as well as information in a sense that we cultivate ourselves and change our personal behaviors to actually accomodate how we are going to share knowledge with each other. Transferring, creating and re-using knowledge does mean something to me. I had indeed gained alot from this learning process.

Project Superstar

2005-08-19T13:42:00.000+08:00

These are the lyrics of the prescribed song for both categories.

童话 by 光良

忘了有多久再没听到你对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久我开始慌了是不是我又做错了什么
你哭著对我说童话里都是骗人的我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂从你说爱我以后我的天空星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你

你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局

你哭著对我说童话里都是骗人的我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂从你说爱我以后我的天空星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局

我要变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局
我会变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局

遗失的美好 - 张韶涵

海的思念绵延不绝终于和天在地平线交会
爱如果走得够远应该也会跟辛福相见

承诺常常很像蝴蝶美丽的飞盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言就像一定会来的春天

我始终带着你爱的微笑一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑嘴角就用你握过的手抹掉

再多的风景也从不停靠只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好但就是谁都替代不了

在最开始的那一秒有些事早已经注定要到老
虽然命运爱开玩笑真心会和真心遇到

DAMN U NECK

2005-08-17T19:15:00.000+08:00

hey creepos and juppos, i sprained my neck...danielle ang! where were u when i needed u?! lol!!! hehe kidding la, i know ur bz. anyway darelle's realli nice to tell me that she's popping by now...so it's kudos!
If you must ask me, i walk like a crab now. my head seems to be under military training. God knows why i have a broken neck! So much for trying too hard at school...

Silver! FARK U LA! HOW CUM U OUT?! I LIKE U! U CANT BE OUT!

Went KTV-ing with amanda and cheryl, god dammit..they are good singers. Im not bad too...they said im good. lol! i can go train and join a singing competition. yippee!!!! We were jumping up and down the sofa, gaining attention from everyone, that includes the employees there who glared at us with "i-want-to-dissect-u" kinda eyes.

Peline's birthday pics are up...

Semestral projects are getting rush-ier! i can feel myself taking a dagger, stab it through my heart and say "god-almighty, may cows rest in peace". So much for ambiguity?!

School = Death

2005-08-02T00:23:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! i feel so tired recently la...haven been clubbing..due to that ONYX incident. Shall tok abt it later.

Anyway school's been bytching me ever since we had to start handing common tests started. We had to rush for projects. IB was a killer...i never sleep at all la. Then came the other modules. I freakin hell got a C+ for ecid la. Well, it wasnt the lowest grade in the class..but i still am available for some contemplation. It's whorish! seriously!

ECD is like...people in my group dont realli start when i start. Im not the one who said that by the way. See! im a nice person. So i decided to take charge of things by having 100 survey forms distributed among us. Even though one of them (you should know who you are), didnt even bother abt doing it in a more serious manner. Well i didnt last very long as well, but at least i had the vivaciousness to go around asking people to help HIM do surveys. Im not gonna be ambiguous about that.

By the way, there's a party.

Venue: Gotham Penthouse (if you dont even know where is it, dun bother coming loser)
Time: Will be confirmed
PRESALE TICKS: 15 for guys, 13 for gurls (it's cheap and i guess more for than that cocolatte party)
Organizing committee: 8 people (i know one of them)
Date: 8th August

Babes and hunks, i think im holding my birthday celebration that day coz thursday is a loser day to be celebrating my birthday. normally that's what happens every year by the way. So im borned im 8th august ok?

okie..the ONYX incident...it's hideous...i puked all ova my shirt la..it formed black substance after that...ewww!!!! im so busted.
All thanks to the ONYX management and the bouncer's carrot juice...urgh!

OH BY THE WAY! I GOT HAMSTERS! TWO OF THEM!! OMG OMG!!! ok one of them is playing with the cotton bud now. lol!

ajboy out!

KMS

2005-07-12T19:21:00.000+08:00

I just reflected on what Ms Teo said in lecture...so i decided that i should have some constructive blog entries online. So here goes....

We sort of got together in class, and discussed about the topic of e-learning activities. Well basically we went through the lecture of this topic and what was interesting about it was the word "skimming". "Skimming is obviously hugely important. But sometimes you should swim, not just skate on the surface - David Weinberger" That's what was in the quote...which is cool! lolz!

The benefits and disadvantages were obviously there. This is what we discussed in tutorial:
- It is consistent.
- Students' Response is definitely different.
- However, different teachers talk about different things.
- MAIN ADVANTAGE: Despite wherever you are, e-learning activities can be assessed as long as you have internet connection at the place you are.
- Some stuff you can do on e-learning are web conference and email.

Basically my personal view on the effectiveness of using of MEL as a tool for learning the KMS module will be justified now. I feel that MEL has indeed given us lots of opportunity to actually express our works such as our group project reports. Lectures notes and tutorials have also been effectively helpful in a sense that we dont miss details of the lecture even before it starts. However there is one thing that i feel that is not good enough is the consistency. Why cant lecturers who post the stuff on MeL standardize a format for students to follow. For example, the dates of the lecture folders could actually be shown so that it's easy for students who are "blur". Isnt that better?

Shyt....

2005-07-03T03:13:00.000+08:00

Overview of my whole freakin week....

Monday was realli shytass. I came back home at 4.30am from ONYX la...freakin hell..damn tired..then i had to wake up for the stupid 9am lesson for International Business because we had a stupid trial game...(actually it wasnt that bad. quite fun.) Thereafter, I went back home to sleep coz i couldnt take it. I realli fell sick la. Therefore, not attending the KMS project meeting. But hello?! Who did the powerpoint slides and crack his brains on the proposal? ME!

Tuesday was worse. we had ecd tutorial. The mad woman shouted at me "is it my problem?". Ok here's the details. We had a tutorial for ecd. There was a question which required us to flip through the textbook which a) we didnt even had a textbook! it was onli referred to us as recommended reading and b) it was all borrowed off the shelf in the library! bytch!

Wednesday was better. We had e-commerce. My fave! lolz! Seriously i never did mind bringing my big acer laptop for this lesson. It's really fun. With 3 gurls in my group, who cares about the weight?! It's time for some pinkish whore shyt. We can bloody gossip and do work at the same time. So cool! OH! i have to tell you...year 2 BS students are people who dont read MeL carefully. They will argue with the lecturer for as long as they can over the matter of whether the right lecture notes was supposed to be brought. I couldnt stop myself from saying a "ha-ha" in the lecture hall. Fortunately, they heard it. It was loud. My schoolmates were like shocked.

Thursday. Yasmin! Thanks for reminding me that i sent spyware to you. Im so proud of myself. LOLZ! i never did manage to send spyware to anyone. Subconsciously i think i manage to do that because it was in my comp...somehow it just appeared to have evil thoughts for yasmin comp. lolz! anyway, love ya dear yasmin. lolz!

Friday. I went clubbing la..as usual. I got my pay. 135 bucks to save my ass for the week. I will be a good boy and stop clubbing. Anyway, i was so bored after taking my pay because i had to wait for Hisham...the idiot who decided to spend some more time at borders while i waited for his ass to drop in front of moi. So i practically went to the arcade (YES! I DID SAY ARCADE) at Plaza Sing. Halfway playing this shyt game (FYI, i never ever won a fight for that particular game), a stupid finger poked me. I turned and "oh hi bytch." Darelle and her friend. (Typical to see darelle at an arcade) lolz!!! Sori..u play like neopets and everything. Im quite proud of Darelle actually. She's got a great big farkin open heart. Opens to anyone. Including MOI. Her friend (forgot her name..sori..gotta get Darelle to tell me), anyway, she's damn "violent". There's this game whereby your a samurai, and then u kill people with an imaginary sword la (basically u hold this shyt rod-shaped thingy). She was practically using even her legs to "kill" people. Violent! YOU GO GIRL! Anyway, it was also Sheena's Bird-day. She is one year closer to death. lolz! nah im just kidding. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEENA! BE A GOOD GURL!

Saturday...well technically yesterday. Peline! So sori..my phone was seriously with my friend..i will make it up to you! okie!?! I really want to go to the liberation party. But im not comfortable without my phone around me. (NOBODY IS RITE? LOL!) It's just like saying "oh my god, why do people have hands anyway?". ANYWAY! lolz! where was i? OH! Chloe! Seriously the person who made my days in this whole week. She's been the listening ear...apart from Cindy (si bei "Sak" ar!) Thank you sweetie! loves and hugs...

Ok..im going church....so im going to sleep. Good nite!

Sleepy Pooh Bear. OUT.

Tag-Board

2005-06-29T02:10:00.000+08:00

FYI and Ms Teo,

My tag-board is at the footer of the page. No space at the sidebar la. lolz! but it looks ok to me...hehe

Cheerleading...

2005-06-29T01:47:00.000+08:00

It's been so long since i left this passion of mine...got to work, got to study..cant really find enough time to cheerlead. I love it..u know...i do remember the time that i quit...and i had a really heated argument kind of ending with my coach. I didnt want to go...but i had to..no one wanted me to stay anyway.

Anyway, i've been seeing lots of video clips lately. Anyone who wants to see them can message me to download from me.

Video Clips:

1) 1st World Cheerleading Championships - Taiwan Team (Mix)
2) 1st World Cheerleading Championships - Taiwan Team (Girls)
3) 1st World Cheerleading Championships - Japan Team (Mix)
4) 1st World Cheerleading Championships - Japan Team (Girls)
5) 2004 Nationals Prelims North Carolina State University
6) 2003 Nationals Prelims North Carolina State University
7) 2004 Nationals Finals Georgia Technological University
8) 2004 Japan Nationals - Sakura Girls High
9) 2004 Japan Nationals - Eagles
10) 2004 Japan Nationals - (this university...mixed one)

Besides this shyt, i had KMS presentation in lecture today. Ms Teo was having critics about how i dressed myself for presentation. I was wearing haviannas sandals and a pair of topman bermudas plus a top i got from one of the shops at heeren. Is it really wrong to wear that? It's just a normal presentation. But then again, i accepted the critics. Sharon wasnt around though, quite worried about her grades nowadays...why do i care so much about friends anyway. Im getting so depressed...

Blog-Hopping

2005-06-22T23:53:00.000+08:00

I just discovered that i am pathetic in blogging. I did some blog-hopping...well not realli that good in it though. Coz i love my most of my friends. Let me tell you why.

Blog-Hop #1: Crystle

I hate you so much. You always can make do with ambiguity! So much for me being too honest with my fag life and myself. You've got cool pictures, I DONT! lolz! Someday im gonna get you to teach me, which i do not know when. Anyway are you seriously going to get the 2nd tatoo?

Blog-Hop #2: Phil

I dont really know you. HurHur. All i know is your from cat high (do you know Jeremy Chan?) and erm my bytch's friend. So...yeah. You've got BIG pictures. AND GOOD QUALITY. Even though some looks like photoshop (oops), but you still look great. Say thanks to me for the second time.

Blog-Hop #3: Clara

Clara Loh CB! Your blog is totally dead! Give it some life woman! And where are you nowadays?! You've hardly given us any trace of you still existent. Appear...Appear...

Blog-Hop #4: Adelyn

Even you've stopped, i can only say you're the best "neighbour" and the best photoshop, and wadeva softwares' user i've ever seen. Well...one of the best. lolz! Wished you still blogged.

Blog-Hop #5: Jelly^Wen

I hate that blog name. Firstly it's irritating. Secondly, damn kawaii-ne act cute. THIRD, it gives people the impression your neurotic. Then again, your still my most hated friend. lolz! Give me your boyfriend! Take out that music btw, it sucks!

Blog-Hop #6: Darelle

Thanks for commenting on the PINK blogskin. It's really "inspiring". I felt so much "better". IM FAG! What do you expect?! A three year old kid's work? Anyway, your blog is just so mass comm. I do not know how else to describe it.

Blog-Hop #7: Danielle

My beloved. Your always good at photo journalism. Well not the best, but keep up the good effort. Love ya!

Blog-Hop #8: Dipa

We just so love pink don't we? haha

Blog-Hop #9: Daphne

I don't really like your blog. You always are so such a BUM! You never blogged properly! lolz!

Now let me explain what's blog-hopping...it's just "transcending" between blogs to blogs to comment on people who have a life. HAHA!

Foxtrot Out!

Tatoo-ing...

2005-06-21T18:03:00.000+08:00

Oh my gosh, i skipped lecture just because crystle wanted to get her tatoo done. I was so ecstactic over that shyt!

OK I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO UPLOAD A PICTURE! so you people out there can jolly well go to her blog and see her tatoo that is directly above her ass. effing shyt!

Anyway it's this place called "ALIVE TATOO STUDIO". The dude who "tortured" our dear lady over here is called Deon. Nice name eh? Anyway in short, the fun part of the whole process was watching crystle agonizing and writhing in pain, suffer that bytch! lolz!

Nah, im just shytting her. I was practically helping her to scream too. HAHA!

Anyway, today's KMS lecture wasnt too bad. No lecture notes la! Ms Teo practically posted it at 9am SHARP! Like..we have lecture at 11am? and ECD tutorial starts at 9am? What's the point?!

This is so lame

2005-06-17T12:10:00.000+08:00

Ok this new blog will include the following links.

1) << My Whores >> Links
2) Just solely << Links >>
3) The rest of the shyt on the bottom

Anyway, since this is a new link to world outside ( because a) i have no life and b) i need a blog for my Knowledge Management Systems thingy which costs me 3% ) So much for pratical experience credits...

Also, i decided i should have a new wishlist.

WishList
1) Paris Hilton Poster (still hoping for one day crystle will appear in front of me holding it and passing it on to me)
2) Still waiting for the bloody room to be mine. which is soon i hope year end is approaching. well at least half a year has passed.
3) I hope that I am sleeping well everyday cuz nowadays im getting more and more neurotic.
4) A birthday present! from anyone. Just one will do cuz i never get anything every year.
5) An infrared or bluetooh detector.
6) More clubbing allowance.
7) A job

End of wishlist.

Oh yeah gotta tell you people about what happened on Sunday at Onyx club (the old centro). It's really good. I think they really set the bar high as far as cache and entertainment value were concerned. haha. You could never imagine how immaculating the opening waS. The lightings were so gorgeous. (So much for 2 rounds of constructions) The podium was a major sight because you could ride on it. lolz! Basically the whole layout wasnt really changed. So i would say..not bad! Plus they have shifted one bar counter to somewhere nicer...hehe...i was practically on the podium itself, all thanks to Bhaskaran who wanted to show off his fats/muscles with several not-so-hot guys. URGH! but then a girl-friend came in. Soon both of us were in the center being total sluts. A funny thing about Onyx is that whenever we wanted so badly to go to the washroom, the song we love comes drumming in our ears. Like rodents, we ran back. lolz! This is how it went.

Walking from the dance floor...
Bhaskaran: Damn shiok, my bladder gonna burst(seriously what is ur point?!)
Me: Haha, yeah...
Song: "That y'all, that y'all......."
Looking at each other, scuddle back.

After a while....

Bhaskaran: Ok i pee-ed in my jeans.
Me: Gross! stay away from me.
Bhaskaran: hey at least i didnt shyt in my black ass. (For the first time of the year, i really really hate him

Okie, gotta go folks.
!Now Playing - Nelly - Shake ya tail feather

A new start....

2005-06-17T11:50:00.000+08:00

Well it's been a real while since i blogged and erm...i would like to give my blog a new start. So, i will still be loving you folks and adding you guys to my blog...will inform you guys la...we are so close to each other.

Regards,
Edmund the slave